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Today I am thankful for Annie's big ole tummy. Lucy has always had this skinny minnie flat tummy. Not our Annie. She has a chunker belly and it makes me so happy. My favorite thing in the whole world is when we ask her where her belly button is when she is standing up. If she is standing and she bends over to find it, she can't because it gets lost in a little roll. Oh my goodness, it is so cute. She gets so concerned about where it went. I could ask her to show it to me 100 times a day.

Thank you to everyone who commented on my post yesterday. I loved reading the different perspectives and thoughts. I have a few more things that I want to say really quickly. I am not concerned that we would love a bio or an adopted child any more or less. I think most people understood that, but I just wanted to make sure I was making sense. I am concerned about resentment that could possibly arise as Lucy or Annie started wanting to look more into their past and the minimal information that we have to give them. I do have some adult adoptee friends, even a few from blended families. The conclusion that I seem to come to every time, is that every single person who has gone through an adoption, will process it differently. I have talked to a few adult adoptees that have no interest whatsoever in knowing about their past or first mother. Others are desperate for information. So, who knows how Lucy or Annie will process all that they have been through. We will obviously find out one day, but we are quite a ways from that point.

I really appreciate Jena and Laura's comments because I can really relate to them. You both had truly wonderful points and I appreciate you taking the time to write them out. I completely and totally can understand what you were both saying. Thanks for your input, and everyone else's as well because it was helpful to me. Kristin, I also appreciate your insight about being pregnant and the inappropriate comments that would come along with it in front of your adopted daughter. This is another HUGE fear of mine. When it was just Lucy, she attracted so much attention everywhere we went. When Annie was added to the mix, even more attention was drawn to us. We don't go anywhere without someone talking about the girls. As anyone with internationally adopted children knows, the inappropriate comments are plentiful. The most common one now that makes me CRAZY is "Are the girls 'real' sisters?" I am generally tolerant of people because I know that they are not trying to be hurtful, but it kills me when people ask this. I just say yes and move right along. No other explanation is needed because they are "real" sisters. So, we already get lots of comments that are out of line, and I can only imagine how often people would comment about our fertility when I was big, pregnant, and waddling around with Lucy and Annie. It kills me to even think about because Lucy is sharp as a tack. She would be all over wanting to know more about what these strangers are talking about. As I am sure all parents do, I have this intense desire to protect the girls from anything that may cause them pain, and I think that these comments would be painful to them.

I feel certain that whatever is supposed to happen for our family, will happen. God has a plan, and we plan to follow it.

I almost forgot Annie's picture tonight. I had already laid her down. I had just walked out when I remembered, so I went right back in, she was SO excited I was back and I love these two pictures of her.